Monday, May 21, 2007

Getting Started

OK, I guess this is my first post, because the last one was only one sentence and I didn't really know what I was doing. Actually, still don't but now I have edited my profile so I feel like I accomplished something this time.

So, Why Blog? Because I have been thinking about starting a journal for months, maybe years now and I have not. Because I am proud of the direction I am going and want to document my trip along the way so I will remember where I came from. Because it will be a good place to record and monitor the weight I take off and serve as positive reinforcement. And even though I am shy and hate attention, I am really not shy and love attention. It is one of my truths, I hate attention and love it at the same time. I hate the way I feel on display and exposed when I have someone's attention, yet at the same time I love to be noticed and appreciated. I have learned you can't have one without the other so this is an exercise in letting go and getting what I want and learning to deal with what I don't want.

And so I close this first post and hope you enjoy my musings. And if you don't, then I'll work on believing how you feel about me is none of my business.

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